Wednesday, March 30, 2011
*AHEM*
I've been a very bad blogger. I'm sorry. I have been over here trying to get some doctors appointments in, getting a CAT scan, waiting and waiting (and you know how I love to wait) for the results of that scan, as well as other rushed things trying to get this approval process done. So, I have done what needs to be done and am now WAITING on the answer. I will do a little more in depth update tonight or tomorrow. Sorry to keep any of you waiting. ;) ~much love
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Waiting and Waiting...
As many of you know, I am not the most patient person on the planet. I hate waiting; I hate waiting in line, I hate waiting on the phone for someone, I hate waiting for people to do what they need to do, I hate waiting for red lights. I hate waiting period.
Guess what I'm doing now?
WAITING.
I so wanted this surgery like 3 years ago. But I best slow down. This will all happen in the right time. I have been waiting for 3 different doctors to return from vacation in the past 2 months. What they think it's cold in Nebraska and have to go somewhere warm? Just kiddin' on that really. I love all of my doctors and they really do deserve vacations, but "Hey, I need this letter/appointment/test now!"
So I have the news now that I must wait until the 29th to visit with the pulmonologist so he can write me a letter of clearance. I hope he does not give me any trouble because I am ready to give it right back. I have not seen him for little over 18 months so I am willing to do a PFT - Pulmonary Function Test but that is about it. He knows me well enough by now.
I'm hoping that all goes well at that appointment. The surgeon's office told me that I can possible have my surgery on the 7th or 11th of April. Wow, that's close and I'm excited. But for now... I must wait.
~much love
Guess what I'm doing now?
WAITING.
I so wanted this surgery like 3 years ago. But I best slow down. This will all happen in the right time. I have been waiting for 3 different doctors to return from vacation in the past 2 months. What they think it's cold in Nebraska and have to go somewhere warm? Just kiddin' on that really. I love all of my doctors and they really do deserve vacations, but "Hey, I need this letter/appointment/test now!"
So I have the news now that I must wait until the 29th to visit with the pulmonologist so he can write me a letter of clearance. I hope he does not give me any trouble because I am ready to give it right back. I have not seen him for little over 18 months so I am willing to do a PFT - Pulmonary Function Test but that is about it. He knows me well enough by now.
I'm hoping that all goes well at that appointment. The surgeon's office told me that I can possible have my surgery on the 7th or 11th of April. Wow, that's close and I'm excited. But for now... I must wait.
~much love
Monday, March 7, 2011
Why?
Well, there comes a time when you just need to get down to the nitty gritty. I guess the time has come. I will be opening myself up here and I hope that I will be supported as opposed to, well, anything else.
I have had enough, enough of the snide comments such as "dah-yum" and being called fat. Enough of the looks, hello people I have a face, you do not need to at my stomach. Enough.
Enough of me, Enough of the being fat, Enough of the longing to play with my kids instead of watching from the sidelines or the window. Enough. Enough. Enough!
I have tried nearly everything I could think of. Atkins, Grapefruit Diet, Cabbage Soup Diet, Slim-fast (that stuff made me more hungry), Richard Simmons, Stop the Insanity! (ha ha, that lady was crazy!), Losing it with Leann, countless attempts at going along with a diet plan with my doctor, some diet pill (phentermin or something like that), and Weight Watchers - I even applied for the Lap-Band back in 2005. Weight Watchers was the most successful for me, but I got to the point I didn't want to pay weekly for it and started to do it at home. I lost 90 lbs. I was elated! I gained 70 or so of it back though. I used to go the the YMCA every single day, and I absolutely loved it, but I needed to get into school and do some homework and then the Y went to the back burner and the quick foods and mind-numbing eating came back.
This has been such an emotion roller-coaster ride. I feel so depressed about the weight. I just need to find out what is right for me. And actually, I have already found the correct surgery and as you know, I am working on getting the approval.
So here it is... 340. That number, 340. Right now, 340. Wow!
Yeah, I just put that out there. It's so hard and I keep contemplating taking it off. But... I will not. It needs to be said and that's that.
I weigh 340 pounds today. This morning when I woke up.
Going to post this so I don't delete it. I will write more later. ~much love
I have had enough, enough of the snide comments such as "dah-yum" and being called fat. Enough of the looks, hello people I have a face, you do not need to at my stomach. Enough.
Enough of me, Enough of the being fat, Enough of the longing to play with my kids instead of watching from the sidelines or the window. Enough. Enough. Enough!
I have tried nearly everything I could think of. Atkins, Grapefruit Diet, Cabbage Soup Diet, Slim-fast (that stuff made me more hungry), Richard Simmons, Stop the Insanity! (ha ha, that lady was crazy!), Losing it with Leann, countless attempts at going along with a diet plan with my doctor, some diet pill (phentermin or something like that), and Weight Watchers - I even applied for the Lap-Band back in 2005. Weight Watchers was the most successful for me, but I got to the point I didn't want to pay weekly for it and started to do it at home. I lost 90 lbs. I was elated! I gained 70 or so of it back though. I used to go the the YMCA every single day, and I absolutely loved it, but I needed to get into school and do some homework and then the Y went to the back burner and the quick foods and mind-numbing eating came back.
This has been such an emotion roller-coaster ride. I feel so depressed about the weight. I just need to find out what is right for me. And actually, I have already found the correct surgery and as you know, I am working on getting the approval.
So here it is... 340. That number, 340. Right now, 340. Wow!
Yeah, I just put that out there. It's so hard and I keep contemplating taking it off. But... I will not. It needs to be said and that's that.
I weigh 340 pounds today. This morning when I woke up.
Going to post this so I don't delete it. I will write more later. ~much love
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Quick Update
I just wanted to throw a quick update for you guys. I'm very frustrated now because I'm having issues with getting what I need from some doctors. I have figured out that ALL of my doctors take vacation sometime during the last two weeks of February and the first two weeks of March. I am REALLY hoping to get this surgery done this month.
I will come back within the next couple days and tell you about why I have chosen to have weight loss surgery.
Until then,
~much love
I will come back within the next couple days and tell you about why I have chosen to have weight loss surgery.
Until then,
~much love
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